I saw once a cat that tormented the mouse for many hours. Instead of quickly killing the mouse and eating it fast, the cat tormented it for hours. It looked as if the cat was enjoying the joy and satisfaction of the torment mouse. I feel like this mouse, and God is the cat. In a very well-known religious song, these words are written: give the blind a hand, less persistent shorten the torment . I do not know why God wants me to suffer.